STEL YOGURL

 

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I discovered disqus totally accidentally, like most people. It was like in 2020 end when I got crazy about pokemon again. I watched every single ep that was dubbed in my language and later i started watching English dubbed even though i wasn't used to it since my English wasn't good at that time. Then after I was done I had not had enough, so I searched what anime even was and from there, I stumbled upon "gogoanime" which was like the first pirated anime site I used and I noticed how there were comments below (yes, disqus embed) and those comments were bustling with life. And so when i saw that, I wanted to engage too, so I made an account but I was never the type to write comments really, I just lurked and upvoted comments here and there. Then I found this manga site called "Mangapark" this is where it all starts, I made an account after like lurking for months there, and i made an account which was purposefully a trap account. It was meant to catch your attention with the name and pfp and all since what i was gonna do what we call "trolling", the very first thing I did there was post a rage bait waifu tier list with a pfp you may have seen me use since the start. There, I met this guy named "Real Taku (he even had fake taku account) and another blud who went by "goat_aizen" and then later I met another named "the_wise_one" with whom I still talk with but really rarely. The general chat was usually slow, its was nothing comparable to what bato offered, or far from chatroom ofcourse. But it was a nice place, a chill one at that, quite a few eccentrics myself included but that's what made it so enjoyable. I was there for many, many months, it was kind of a relaxing place I used after rough day.

Then around november we (me and a few others) went to bato chat lmao that was because a guy wanted to ask girls a few questions, and we were like bro there's no girl here the fuck you mean, and so we said you should go to bato to get answers. And he was like nah I don't think so but later realtaku used this guy's excuse as his own to go there and ask those girls some questionable questions. I followed him there to see what lore I am missing out on. Then I commented there too and thinking back if we hadn't, I wouldn't have come here. There I first saw fufu and darky, darky was like super regular and famous in bato, they even called it his harem, crazy stuff. So he like stalked my account to mangapark and invited me, at first I was like suspicious what if its scam or wtv, but I agreed nonetheless, and so I was tagged.

I remember that day really clearly, it was probably 9th of November, around 8-9pm when I was first tagged here, luckily for me, the chat used to be always active. My first thought was, "These bluds are crazyyyyyyyy, I'm in". I was like unsure the fuck I should do, so you know what i did? I sent a meme. Very conversationalist of me right? Well anyways, the meme was prolly something weird and anime related too, so i got some reactions out of it and then I said I can yap wit him some blud and he was like bet, so i was dragged in it. Then the very first day I met author, and she and I vibed a lot, so I would tease her every chance I would get, not too long after I met rider, the forever constant, of all the things that has happened, he is a recurring figure in all of those, amidst the vast array of people and things that have changed.

And later I got acquainted with a few more people like goldy, jia, kagu, fluffy, felix, josten, arty, cof, silvi, alex, kul, anish, andy, khronos, bulu, ikaruga, slow, hyera, roxy, rf, shadow, sovi, ryan, kai, yoshi, quinn, feng, aurora, goat, olivia, liedas, hanfos, flames, saty, rainy, victor, knight, ladyhead and more. Funnily enough, at first I was only interested in being a troll for the sake of being weird and farm reactions. Since that was the very purpose of my original account and this place was no exception. Or so I had thought. After coming here for the shits and giggles, I ended up having some deep conversations which changed my perception of this place. I didn't know you could have all this online. I met a guy named "alex get out" , we were kinda similar so we talked and yapped a lot, too much infact, So I continued to come to atlantis, day after day, I met lots of people, the first thing they would ask me was "FUCK IS UP WITH YOUR PFP DUDE" and thats how i was first known. I fought with hyera for sum reason coz and it was because of coc cock joke and more idr, yee dont ask me how we argued on that but what i do remember is that I was just going along too see how long she goes and for the love of god she was not stopping.

Some few many shits later, I became a regular. I think I did a splendid job at blending in a very short time. Then around christmas I deleted my original account. Later I came back ofcourse and stayed for good. At times I felt the difference in having came later and being here for much longer, when people would be talking about something I don't know, a gc everyone is talking but I wouldn't know, a thing from the past being talked about, but ofc, I wouldn't know. Also I used to keep my mouth shut about matters of atlantis, as I wasn't even sure of my own place within the chatroom and I am far from optimistic enough to believe a person they knew for less than a fraction of how long they have been here would hold any significance and I wasn't exactly sure of the functioning of atlantis, I didn't know how it received new users so to not step on a land mine I turned a bit more formal and respectful. However, even that sentiment was really early It changed to me opening up a bit and talk without the early persona. As the people were really welcoming.

I felt like a permanent addition to atlantis as things went on. I guess you could say me being always active played a part in that and you'd be right. I have also been given many names over the course, the most notable ones being YOGURT and Stellar, which I later made my main username.

There was also the time when when this user named verti from bato . Well so I dissed her for being weird and shared a ss of her admitting to something i don't particularly remember what it was, and that was enough for her to start tagging me with hate comments and drag my name in the dirt enough so that I couldn't even comment there because there was no winning against her, you could write 10 comments to her but she would have spammed 100 hate comments by the time you were finished so I thought welp that's it ig, i wasnt really attached to bato anyways, so I blocked her stopped going there entirely. Later I unblocked her after she was asking other people to ask me to unblock her and also darky had intervened since she was his friend. Ngl i am really greatful for having met him, or I wouldnt be here.

Meanwhile, I was also out there venturing on other chatrooms like abyss, cita, HM, and more. One of them was moeverse, the other place I used to be a regular apart from atlantis. Fascinatingly I had more serious discussions there than I have had here, I wonder if its because most of them were much older, and had many experiences so there was a lot to discuss, and rider was also there so that was one other familiar face there. It was a daily jam to talk shit with rider, kush, axi (axis), raza, nami (rei) and a few other bluds.

I think fallen beefed with goat coz he was trashin on his music and then for some reason I was tagged on HM being called a lapdog of atlantis when lwk i didn't even know then, so i asked em whats up and then we talked and then it got sorted and I kept going there time to time.

Later I was advised against visiting HM after someone from moe told me, at that point I didn't really understand it, I was like the kind to go anywhere and everywhere especially since I had no beef and rider was also there on HM too, which ofc would be a point of that was debated later on. However, I think I got dragged briefly at a certain point where I was arguing wit kurumi prolly and she said a few things I disliked very much so then I went on to degrade myself, which I still feel kind of shameful towards, for having written a hate para which I would usually say is out of character for me regardless of what happened. Then being on HM was awkward after those stuffs happened and I had to pick a side so I stopped visiting the place and stayed there on moe. And as they say, nothing lasts forever and thus the beef intensified and shit hit the fan and it was all but over. Either bluds deleted or went inactive. After that I mostly exclusively visited atlantis. Much longer after that I decided to put it all in past and sorted things with kurumi . I also found this dead chatroom called terra, I didn't really have much going on there but I met a user named treat with whom I talked a bunch and even now, I smtimes go there occasionally and tag her to see what's up. Aside from that, apart from those two I couldn't fit in any other place, as I mentioned, I used to have a persona that isnt me, and to break out of that took time which I didn't bother to. Other than that , I dont really have much opinion on the chats I wasn't frequently visiting, tho I was a lil curious why most of these chatrooms were beefin with eachother one way or another. Later when I heard the lore shit was deeper than i thought

Though even when I stopped visiting other places due to either not fitting or some stuff that happened, I never felt as if I was missing out, atlantis was still the place 95% of my activity went too.

Around the time cof deleted, he made a new alt named niky and around those times, he didn't visit atlantis, instead he was mostly on abyss, cita. He made his persona to be like a girls, and even I believed it. There he got closer to a lot of girls and idk, much later, there was gc made between a few of us from atlantis after "niky" came back to atlantis. "niky" was asking for tea of the things that has happened here, as "niky" claimed to be a new user but I didn't know it at the time. My clueless ahh was about to share everything then one of the people in the gc whom again I don't think I can reveal, told me that there's a growing suspicion on that niky user I was discombobulated beyond belief but I listened and it made some sense. When we realized he's integrated far too much into abyss chatroom enough so that he was in contact with them even in discord for which he used an alt. For us it was like weird since later he admitted he was offered face revs too which he claimed to have rejected. We deemed it as catfishing and so I went to abyss to talk to baldy about it just to be safe, the chat was really active he didn't really see what I said since it got buried then one of us whom I don't think I can reveal, reached out to baldy and explained what is happening, baldy then explained this to the abyss girls and to exercise caution, but it wasn't needed since soon after "niky" confessed to everything. At the start we weren't sure if its cof or not so we tested the waters and figured stuff out. It's not something many people know, I shared this because its one of the crucial things that has played a part in the journey since after this cof and I argued in dms pretty often, it felt like we were gonna beef for real even though at times it indeed was left on a knifes edge.

Still, we recovered from that. And also it may be weird to say, but due this incident happening was when I actually got closer to everyone else even more since I was now talking personally in gcs and dms and stuff due to being lifelessly online on discord tooo as I was constantly checking my dc to play detective detective with everyone.

I have made some really great friends like rider, jia and goldy, who are still here in some form. And a few other great people I liked quite a bit who have left which is a shame. Atleast I a get to talk to a few others on discord like felix and fluffy. I don't use insta that much or I would also be in touch with cof still. And man do I miss playing chess with sovi. I met a few people much later like asta, mewo, xera, cosmi, nitro, gray, bill bill and so on. I hope I didn't forget anyone and if I did just know its just my memory playing tricks on me. The periodic events were the cherry on top with such creative ideas. My fav one being the riddle and ToD event. I gotta say each and every one of the one I have seen play out has been one blast (I gotta do one for old times sake and tag everyone in it)

Just like that, months passed. Shit comes, shit goes. People leave, people come. At that point, I knew most of the people, so it was easier to talk. Then one day, beef happens, mods go inactive, delete, and the next day Jia randomly asks me, “Do you want to be mod?” I said sure, and just a few mins later she says, “Congrats, you’re a mod now.” And that’s how I became a mod here. Later she cucked us as she left the team but I respect the hustle. There weren’t many left anyway, not like there are now, but I tried to do what I could, like holding events, finding tags, and summoning people. I haven’t had a big inactive phase the whole time I’ve been here. It’s decreased in frequency, sure, but I never left. Not that I hadn’t thought about leaving, there have been times where I was this close to deleting once again, but I never went through with I got talked out of it. And now we even watch anime, movies, series together on stream, or play some game. Disqus wouldnt have so much memories for me, or disqus as a platform itself wont be in my mind if not for the people and atlantis itself and the people in it. Matter of fact, I wouldn't even have anyone to talk to online.

Oh and yee, I also made two blogpost of my own and one of which i gave to jia, it wasn't really an attempt to make a new chatroom but I was testing how to make one since idk when and how but i said to jia I would do it, so i did, I made a FLASHY blogpost with disqus embed. But them bluds really be stalking my activity and even without revealing anything lotta people found out about it. Its still there catching cobwebs.

Sometimes, I wished I was here from the start, I would have been in the prime days but it is what it is. Over time I have learned how to stop saying much embarrassing stuff, and make it so that the next time I read a comment or yap of mine, I don't become fully red from embarrassment. As having crashouts and getting swayed by the emotions was enough for me to close my brain off in such matters. So embarrassed as i get for showing such a side and suck it up for I am about to fry my brain, as this is probably the last piece of thing that I will leave here, something this big about everything and about myself. Most of the things that has happened good or bad in atlantis, remains a fond memory, even the bad ones, I look back at it and think how silly it seems now. Just thinking about how different things used to be. I was involved in my fair share of beefs, but I never truly disliked anyone, atleast in atlantis, I may not have vibed with a few at times but even they were needed to complete the atlantis puzzle.

I have changed to a significant degree too, from my current way of talking to even in the way I try to reply without being dry. I have been friendfluenced, I have fought and learned where I was wrong and apologized for it. I have also rediscovered my music taste too ngl. I have discussed so much that at this point I feel like i am left with not much to talk about. Those nightlantis days with arty di, bulu and all the nightlantis usuals who would come, made it the best time of being active in atlantis. Also when most beef has taken place, there's something in night man. People lose their shit. I no longer fall for low tier bait and now i understand a variety of reference I otherwise wouldn't.

I could go on to write my story with everyone and the stuff that lead upto and lead after that, however that will be too long. Sidenote, after being this deep into writing this shii, I dont fucking remember anything else, maybe I should have beefed with more people and that would make this spicy?? prolly but i was in the peacful era of disqus comprared to what previously existed, it was def peacful. 

So in a different timeline i may have been the kind who 1. Ragebaits, 2. Fights and more fights, 3. rude to everyone (except for the ones i simp for) 4. a rapper Sounds vaguely familiar doesnt it. Jk (am i?) that reminds me I havent mentioned zero, ye ngl I havent talked much wit him, but lwk hes grown on me and his raps too. He used to beef with axi almost every other day and then get banned the same number times. I think he prolly holds the title of being the most banned on disqus not even joking. But ayeee hes got a job now and i dont so on a social spectrum I am low as fuck.

I remember damn near remember every single person, those guys from MP, who led the charge to bato, those bato weirdos, and then all the atlantis and moe people, even the ones I fought with, all the old and new people. I remember all of them and I genuinely thank my memory for that.

So thank you, for making it the place that it is, and that includes everyone. So ye, such has been the journey of mine. I dont really have much lore or crazy story to show like other people but its all that I could remember for the moment. I have made 90k comments over all the accounts that I have ever held and also gotten a bit of recognition of online lifelessness, and having won a few awards and making a place for myself in the atlantis history books or so i would hope. Domino effect is what led me to be here and I would be lying if i said I don't miss those who guys from the comment section as disqus was purged from every pirated site there is. Now nothing is the same, the channels have been dead since covid times. And now even yoshi has stepped down, the admins no longer present, the mod team no longer there, no more events so to speak.

All that to say It’s been a good run. You could argue it’s no longer the same now, with how things are, but still, when all is said and done, and the dust has settled, and we find ourselves submerged underwater, long LONG after we lose all contact, and long after we’ve moved on to the next thing in our lives, long after that too, there’ll come a day when I’ll remember bits of this place and pieces of the memories. As I lie down on my couch with my spine almost killing me, I’ll see or hear something that gives me déjà vu from here, a conversation I already had here, a joke I already heard here, a series I already discussed enough that I could give a lecture on it, and I’ll remember the shit I used to do, the good, the bad, and the ugly, while laughing all the same in the face of oncoming nostalgia and think once again, "so I wonder, how are those bluds are doing" 

Long may atlantis live.